This whole time I’ve been brainwashed into thinking I needed some big time classy professional job that would make me a ton of money. I’ve dropped out of college 3 times trying to pursue the education that everyone has been shoving down my throat, but honestly im putting my foot down. I’m gonna be my own person, and I don’t wanna fall for that. There are two kinds of jobs, mentally straining and physically straining. I’m so mentally strained already that i don’t think I can handle any more. I don’t wanna fake a smile, and fake an image with heels and long sleeves covering my tattoos, I don’t want to have to change my voice to my fake tone with a filter on for 8 hours every fucking day. I don’t wanna mislead people of who I am. I wanna wear jeans and a cutoff shirt and get my hands dirty and sweat and be physically tired when I get home because I did physical work. I’m a high strung kinda person that needs to stay busy. An education doesn’t determine someone’s intelligence or their importance and I don’t need to pay thousands of dollars for someone to give me a gold star and say I’m smart enough to do a certain job. So I’m not going to. Now that I can let go of the idea of school, maybe I can find a real job that I actually want.